Alive n out of control

For crying out lord I’m running from a comedown
God forbid I know I’ve been a letdown
Reaching for the sky while leaving in a gutter
Kicking and screaming I am singing bloody murder
I’m alive when I’m vulnerable
I’m out of control, I’m losing my soul
I can’t be your angel when I’m living like a devil
Can’t be your lover when I’m living like a rebel
Don’t want your pity and I don’t want your help
Don’t try and save me go take care of yourself
I’m alive! Sick of the pain I’m sick of the sorrow
Sick of today I’m sick of tomorrow
I’m addicted to the misery in my head
I better stop before I end up dead

So I climb to the top just to fall to the bottom
And I climb to the top just to fall to the bottom