Pray for forgiveness

Beautiful garden, where have you gone?
my self delusions are leaving me in the storm
Taking for granit, all the goodness that ive found
somewhere i lost all, the control came crashing down

and i pray for forgiveness
look for the answer
cause its hard
for me to pretend
look to my mother
call to the captain
cant you see
this state that im in
no one would notice
nobody noticed
cause its me where it began

beautiful morning, please dont wake me from my sleep
cause i need some comfort, to regain my sanity
?i dont want to feel this crazy,
i dont want to feel this heartache
??
im so broken hearted
no where left to run
no where left to go
so i hope

i pray for forgiveness
look for the answer
cause its hard for me to pretend
look to my mother
call to the captain
cant you see
this state that im in?
and no one would notice
nobody noticed
that its me, where it began
and i pray for forgiveness within

I swear that everyday I feel like my mind is haunting me
I think of every little stupid mistake that is made
This time ill have the strength to gather myself
Im falling to pieces

And I pray for forgiveness
look for the answer
cause its hard for me to pretend
look to my mother
call to the captain
cant you see
this state that im in
pray for forgiveness
looking for justice
searching for answers
call to my mother
pray for forgiveness
breaking the silence

nobody knows it, nobody noticed
thats it me
where it began