My heart is a fist

I surrender, I know I’ve been a pretender
You can have this guilt this misery I wear so well
I wave my flag I sound the alarm
Somebody stop me before I do any harm
I surrender I know I’ve been a pretender
I’m living a dead life I’m staring into the headlights
Of a gateway car that’ll take me out of my mind tonight
Crash and burn s.o.s. somebody help me get out of this mess of a dead life
I’m burning under the spotlight
My head it a fist drenched in blood
My soul will fight again
Take a look at these hollow eyes- one last look before I say goodbye
To this candle-lit nightmare I feel like can never escape
So watch me fall from grade-watch me carve my hate
In the heart of a lover I feel I can never escape my fate
I see you on your cloud looking down
I am on my knees today but you don’t notice me
You don’t notice me
I’m screaming while I pray
While I pray
While I pray
You don’t notice me
I’m sick of you…
I am done with you…