Need to

I, I am confused, fighting myself
Wanting to give in, needing your help
Skin cold with fear, fear lives when we touch
Outside I don’t know, but inside I’m fucked

Can you see it in me? Skin cold from touch
Each turn confronted with what I have done
You pull me closer, I push you away
You tell me it’s okay, I can’t help but feel the pain

I hate you
Why are you taken?
I love you
Why do I feel so helpless?
Why is it you?
Ripping my insides each time I’m with you
Why do I cry?
Why do I really need to?
Why?
Fuck you, bitch!
Need to… fuck
Slut